What can I say, my marriage has broken down. I am soon to be a single HT enthusiast. The soon to be ex says I can keep all of the HT system, as long as she gets the leather couch and love seat and the queen size bed, after that, 50 50 for everything else and I said deal. It turns out that we are being very peaceful with this process which is great. We have decided to right down all the arrangements together so everything is agreed on and then just have the lawyers document it, have us sign it and nothing will be dragged out.

I have been with this women since Oct 93, we got married in July 98 and have 1 son who was born in July 99. Even though we have agreed on getting a divorce, I just can't help being very upset. I don't know if I'm upset for my son, myself or both. Just out of the blue I start to break down. I start to compose myself almost right away but I know I'm not going to beable to keep it up forever. Once my house is sold, my next chapter of my life will start. At 35, I don't know where to start, but I know I will have to be strong for my son, who's life is being completely torn apart.

I just hope all this is worth it. I hope I can find the happiness that I haven't had in a long time and I hope my soon to be ex finds it too.